I'm Engaged!!!

Father wanted to see me in the library yesterday and you would never guess what he said to me.  He said that he had received a letter from Mr. Collins.  The letter said to congratulate for getting engaged to Mr. Darcy.  Well, we were not engaged then, but we are now.  He proposed to me when we went for a walk.  Mother sent us along with Jane, Mr. Bingley and Kitty; They soon went their own ways and left Mr. Darcy and I alone.  I was now fully in love with him that I told him I might recons leider his offer.  Now that only thing to do is tell father, but I am sure he will be happy for me; mother will be happy as well.

Lady Catherine's Demand

We had a surprising visitor today at Longbourn; Lady Catherine, herself.  Mother was very surprised when she asked to me to walk around the gardens with her.  Lady Catherine tried with all her might to get me to promise not to marry Mr. Darcy, but of course I said that I could not.  I had suspected her to say this to me because she still thinks that Mr. Darcy is going to marry her daughter.  In fact, she told me that her daughter is engaged to Mr. Darcy; that almost made me laugh out loud because if he was we would have heard about it.

Mr. Bingley's Visit

My mother will do anything to get her daughters married.  She has been trying to get Jane and Mr. Bingley out of the house alone togather, but that has yet to happen because father told me to go with them.  I just knew it; Mr. Bingley proposed to Jane.  She is so happy; she told me earlier that she is the most happiest person alive.  I know they are going to be very happy togather.

Dining with Friends

I can not believe that Jane would not take my advice about falling in love.  I hope she does not have her heart broken again, but personally I think that Mr. Bingley still loves Jane.  When Mr. Bingley and Mr. Darcy came for dinner Mr. Bingley went right over to Jane and sat next to her with a big smile on his face.  Mr. Darcy on the other hand was seated next to mother.  You should have seen me before they arrived, actually it is better you didn't, I was so anxious for Mr. Darcy to arrive.  Hopefully mother will not be so rude to him too much.

Mrs. Gardiner's Replay

My aunt finally wrote me back with her answer to why Mr. Darcy was at Lydia's wedding.  She said that he was invited because he was the one who found them.  When she asked how he found them he said that he bribed his sisters governess, Mrs. Younge to tell him where they were.  My aunt also said that Mr. Darcy convinced Wickham to marry Lydia by paying off all of his debts.  I guess Mr. Darcy really has changed.  Him is so much kinder to everyone now; I like that.  We did get some visitors at Longbourn yesterday and no one would guess who came.  Mr. Bingley and Mr. Darcy!  I was pleasantly surprised but I can not say the same of mother.  She was ranting about how much she disliked Mr. Darcy.  She was overly polite to Mr. Bingley and civil to Mr. Darcy; she is so embarrassing sometimes.  Then later she starts braging about Lydia getting married.  Sometimes I can not believe her.

Lydia comes home

Lydia was very happy to see all of us when she came home.  Mother was very excited to see Lydia, even though a couple weeks ago she was so very upset.  I was kind of disgusted when Lydia was acting like she was better than everyone else because she was married.  That just showed that she has not changed in the short time she was gone.  When Jane and I were talking to Lydia she let slip that Mr. Darcy was at their wedding.  Why was he at their wedding?  I must write my aunt and see what she has to say. 

What shes not Married!

I am so glad Lydia is safe, but I do have one question.  Why are they not married yet because I was sure that they were.  In Mr. Gardiner's last letter, he said that they would get married if father gave Lydia 5 thousand pounds a year.  After the letter arrived father was having a really hard time. I don't know why; but I do know that he was very quiet when my uncle mentioned money.  I hope he has enough.  I think the letter was joyful because Lydia was safe but it was sad because Wickham was in debt to my uncle.

Mr. Collins Letter

Well I have been home for only a few days when father received a letter from Mr. Collins.  The letter was offensive, to say the least.   He told father that he was grieving the death of his daughter.  Just so you know Lydia has not died, she is just merely missing.  And besides I am sure that she will turn up eventually.  Father did not seem very upset about it but I think it hit a sore spot for him.  Please let Lydia be okay.

Will She Come Back? Single? Married?

When I was discussing Lydia with the Gardiners they assumed that Lydia already wanted to marry Wickham.  I do not wish to believe a word of what they said, but they do make sense.  According to Jane my whole family is very upset and confused.  They seem to have calmed down some when they heard that father was intending to go out and try to find Lydia.  Jane showed me Lydia's letter she sent right before she disappered; it said that she hoped to be married by the time she saw them next.  Please let Lydia be okay.

Lydia? Marriage?

I feel ashamed for leaving Pemberly without getting to know Miss Darcy better but I had to get home quickly.  Yesterday Jane sent me a letter saying that Lydia is missing and that mother was distraught.  I do hope that Miss Darcy will forgive me for leaving.  No one would guess who Lydia has eloped with.  She went off and married Wickham.  Wickham, of all of the officers she could have chosen, she has to choose Wickham.  Mr. Darcy was very understanding about my leaving and I was surprised that he was.  I am still waiting for him to say less than kind words to me.  I hope Lydia is okay. 

At Pemberly with the Darcy's and Bingley's

I have learned more about Miss Darcy ; she has a very good sense of humor and her manners are perfect and gentle.  I did fear the appearance of Mr. Darcy but now I am pleased that he allowed us to tour his home.  Miss Bingley is getting on my nerves because she was badmouthing me in front of others, as well as me.  It felt good to know that Mr. Darcy would stand up for me.  I guess I might have misjudged him a little.

Meeting Miss Darcy

When we went to Pemberly, Mr. Darcy was not suppose to come home until the next day and one would never guess who he wanted me to meet.  He wanted me to meet his sister Georgiana Darcy.  I was very surprised to say the least.  I have never seen such a lovely girl; she is very pretty and graceful. 
I still can not believe what Mr. Darcy's housekeeper said about Mr. Darcy; she said the he has never said an unkind word near her in all the time she has known him.  I wish to make a fact known to everyone that I do not hate Mr. Darcy, I just have slight dislike for himand it is growing smaller.

Going Home From Rosings

Finally, I am leaving Rosings And I am collecting Jane along the way.  I can not help but wonder how Lady Catherine would treat me if I had said yes to Mr. Darcy.  I think she would treat me better because she would not want to upset her "favorite nephew".  Mr. Collins took me aside and said he was grateful that spent time with Mrs. Collins; I feel bad for leaving Charlotte in Hunsford becaue she is still my friend.  I do hope to get home soon.

Off to Pemberly

My father and I have always been close, but one would figure he is the closest to mother but apparently not, you see when they got married they do not understand each other well enough.  A week ago the Gardiners invited me to see the lakes with them, I can not wait.  The day we are suppose to leave Mr. Gardiner had work to do in London.  So, instead of seeing the Lakes we went to Derbyshire.  A day into our trip we were passing by Pemberly and Mrs. Gardiner asked I wanted to see it.  At first I said no because I had no business there.  After a little convincing for Mrs. Gardiner I agreed to go to Pemberly.  I just hope that Mr. Darcy will not tell us to leave.

Talks and a Leaving Lydia

Finally, we're home and do not have to listen to Lydia any more.  When I told Jane about Mr. Darcy she looked surprised, to say the least, and told me that Mr.Darcy might change in the near future because of my refusal.  Lydia told us the next day that Colonel Fitzwilliam and Mrs. Foster are taking her to Brighton. Why you may ask.  Well if you want an answer than ask father because he told me that she will never growup unless we allow her to go where she wants and learn from her mistakes.  I still think it is a bad idea.

A Long Ride Home

I do believe that Lydia has just wanted someone else besides Kitty to talk to.  She nearly talked Jane's and my ears off.  Even though she told us valuable information, she still did not have to talk all the way home.  She did tell us her opinion about Wickham not marrying Mary King.  Want I really want right now is to talk to Jane about my time at Rosings and Mr. Darcy's proposal and letter.  If only Lydia will stop talking!

After the Letter

After I read Mr. Darcy's letter I did not expect a renewal of his offer.  When I read it again I thought long and hard about what he has said and I suppose I could give him a chance, but he has a lot to make up for.  I do hope that mother will not take this the wrong way beacuse I still do not like him; I just think a little better of him.  I wonder what Jane will think of this?

How Dare He!!

Mr. Darcy has the nerve to propose to me after he tells Mr. Bingley to leave Netherflield and in the process destroying Janes' heart.  A couple days ago he came over to Rosings saying that he thought the other ladies were here, which was not true, and was hoping to talk to them.  When the others came home Mr. Darcy spoke to them for a few moments and then left soon afterwards.  Well yesterday he walks in and starts asking about my health; he than proceeded to tell me than he had unwillingly fallen in love with me.  How can he unwillingly fallen in love with someone?  Anyway I had to refuse him.

A Day at Rosings

Mr. Darcy seems to always find me no matter where I am.  Its like he follows me where ever I go, even when I walk down the road.   I was very interested in Colonel Fitzwiliam musings; last night he told me about how he got partial guardianship of Miss Darcy.  Colonel Fitzwilliam believes that Mr. Darcy does what is best for Mr. Bingley.  I do hope I see more of  Colonel Fitzwilliam, he was ever so kind.

Mr. Darcy Comes To Rosings

 Mr. Darcy came to Rosings with Colonel Fitzwilliam yesterday and it was quite a surprise.  Throught the next week we only ever saw Mr. Darcy at church.  Colonel Fitzwilliam's manners are admired very much around Rosings.  I can't believe Lady Catherine would say such a thing!  I can play the piano well enough thank you.